Wednesday, August 9, 2023

The last 48 years

 It's been over 3 years sinced I put up blog post, and I feel terrible about that. So, here goes.

As most of you know, I lost the love of my life on November 6,2021.After being together for over 46 years, God decided that he needed another angel.I can tell you this without fear of contradiction that he could not possibly have picked a better person that her. She loved everyone she ever me, and everyone she ever met loved her.

The happiest day of my wife was when she agreed to be my wife. She may have been a little punchy at the  time because she had worked a double shift before I picked her up. I drove to Little Bo's parking lot where we always went to talk. She kept falling asleep, so I did the only thing I could think of to wave her up; I proposed!!! That did in fact wake her up, followed by a smiling, crying YES!!!

We married in June of 1975 (second best day of my life). A year and four months later came the third best day of my life when our oldest son was born.

We couldn't afford a sitter, so she stayed home with him. Raising him and teaching him while I worked. December of 1979 marked the fourth best day of my life when our youngest son came into the world. Sh\e continued to stay home with the 2 boys until they both were in school. She then went to work but all too soon she began suffering from bipolar syndriome. 

From then until her passing she ended up aquiring one new health problem after another. Finally she succumbed and flew up to be cradled in the Lord"s arms where she no longer was in pain and free of all ailments.

That was just over 21 months ago and I still have times when I can't believe she's gone. I fell apart some, retreating into my house and just holing up and shutting ouit the world. I didn't want to go anywhere, do anything, or even see anyone. I actually told Roger Hadan that I wasn't going to come back to work at Eagle Raceway. Luckily friends knew me better than I knew myself and changed my mind for me. I couldn't stand to be away from my happy place; the race track. I couldn't stand to be away from my racing family. I loved what I did at the track and always thought I was darned good at it.

Unfortunately I haven't as of yet gone back to writing magazine articles, but I believe I will if I'm still wanted there.

That's always something that bothers me; not knowing whether or not what I wrtote was any good. My stories of the night's racing at Eagle gets posted on both the track's website and Facebook page. Is it good? Is it just okay? Or is it just crap?? Never getting ny feedback makes me wonder. Everyone needs to be appreciated, right?

There are just 8 nights of racing left this season, and that saddens me. Hovever, I am going to do my darndrest to get back to being published nationally to tide me over until next season's racing season.